A day like today

A little background... I have a chronic pain disorder. I had surgery to determine if my pain was from endometriosis in December, the day before my husband came home from Iraq. That day, after my surgery we found out that I didn't have any visible endometriosis. I thought we had to start from scratch and I was disappointed that we didn't know what was wrong. At this point I had been in pain in my back, pelvis and all over for 5 months, so I was frustrated. At my 2 week surgery check-up I finally had an answer. I have pelvic congestion syndrome. I had never heard of it before, but I was glad to have an answer. Pelvic congestion syndrome is a medical condition in women caused by varicose veins in the lower abdomen. The condition causes chronic pain, often manifesting as a constant dull ache, which can be aggravated by standing. In my case, I have bad back pain and occasional pelvic pain. My back pain feels just like back labor, which you may experience during childbirth. I am now on lupron shots, which basically makes my body think I'm in menopause(I'm only 26, so it's strange to feel hot flashes and mood swings). I'm also on a pill that basically does the same thing. Unfortunately I don't think it's helping. I am optimistic that the next 3 month dose will do something though. Everyday I wake up I'm not sure how I'll feel. Somedays I feel mostly great, other days I feel awful. Either way, I'm still a mom and wife and I can't sit around and do nothing. I've changed some things about myself that have helped slightly, but only slightly. I don't really eat junky or greasy foods anymore or chocolate. I drink water and tea and snack on yogurt and fruit. I changed my shoes to comfortable, although a bit ugly, crocs. I sit down more and rest and I take naps (but sometimes the naps aren't planned, ha). I still manage to have dinner ready and keep the house clean. I help the boys do work and play with them. I still grocery shop and manage to keep my smile. I see no reason to wallow in my pain, that won't make me feel better and it won't do me any good. I hope to show others that no matter what, you can get through anything if you stay positive, pray, read your Bible and have supportive family and friends. As I'm writing this I am sitting on a heating pad and resting my lower back on a pillow. Today was a very painful day, but I still went to church and fellow shipped with my church family and I still managed to get out of bed and accomplish things. Matt did make dinner tonight, which was such a blessing. God bless!